So… now what?
Yesterday morning I came back to work after a wonderfully lazy three-day weekend only to be told that the company was “downsizing” and “experiencing budget cuts” and that my position was being eliminated and my last day will be the 28th of January.
Good morning to you, too.
Talk about being blindsided. Talk about the unexpected. Talk about being scared! After all, we are (were) a one-income family. Micah goes to school to school full-time, takes care of Caleb during the day so we can avoid day-care costs and goes to night classes 5 of the 7 days of the week. All we really had was my income. And the photography, of course.
Which speaking of that…
I find it ironic that people are echoing the question that is blaring through my own heart. Nearly every person that I’ve talked to since yesterday has asked, “So you’re going full-time with photography, right?”
I don’t know. I just don’t know.
I mean… I want to. I REALLY REALLY REALLY want to… It would fulfill the deepest desires of my heart by allowing me to pursue my passion as my career AND allow me to be the stay-at-home mom that my heart longs to be.
But the what-if’s won’t get out of my head.
I need wisdom.
I need guidance.
I need to quit worrying and trust God.
Wait… what was that last one?
Oh yeah… now why didn’t I think of that?
So what am I going to do now that my world has been turned upside down?
I’m going to live. I’m going to survive. In fact, I’m going to thrive.
I am going to take the part-time housekeeping job that they offered and use the other 20 hours of the week to pursue my photography. I was up until midnight last night working on packages, website relaunch, business fine-tuning. Our May relaunch has been moved up to February. And so I have less than two weeks to bring in a full-time salary. Or at least a part-time salary that coupled with my part-time job will bring in a full-time income.
I will still apply for other positions, of course, and so whatever God brings me to… He’ll see me through it.
And it’s going to be GREAT!
Bet you never saw anyone so happy about losing their job.